Sunday, February 01, 2009

Can't Shake Tha West Side

So I am in the process of moving... I'm all set to drop a 'guap' (translation: lot of money) on a nice new apartment (over 1000 sq. ft., which is heaven to me, as I've lived in a 1 BR garden apt. for 6 years now) overlooking the lake. Modern appliances, great neighborhood. Underground parking -- whoo hoo!!! Just what I need in snowy-behind Chicago. Dishwasher. 2 BR, 2 bathroom (never mind that I don't need 2 bathrooms)...

So I'm on my way to put down the security deposit and sign the lease, but I haven't felt comfortable about this decision. Something's just not quite right... So I turn my car around and drive around aimlessly.

Through God's providence, and the prayers of the saints, I end up looking at a much cheaper ($400/month less) apt, still 2 BRs, but much smaller space, older apt., old appliances, there goes my stainless steel kitchen sink! But I believe this is how God's leading. The other apt. was what my flesh wanted, and what the devil and 'self' said I deserved, but not what I'm seeking anymore right now. Doesn't make sense to pay all that money just 'cuz I have it, esp. when I could save for a house and used car. Biggest thing, though, is that I can't disrupt my little one's life that much. Already her bus ride to school is 45-60 mins. each way. Moving to Oakland-Kenwood would add at least 30 mins. each way to her route, perhaps more in the p.m. due to rush hour. So I gave up wrestling and made the decision I know God wants of me...

It's amazing how peace comes when you mortify the flesh and just stop fighting and obey God.

So this week I'll move, to an apt. less than 5 mins. from my current one, w. 1 extra bedroom, but everything else pretty much the same. I am thankful, though, for God's guidance. I appreciate His work on my conscience, taking away my peace until I did what was best.

That's why He's God...